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Billie Lourd and Carrie Fisher.
(Photo: Getty)Billie Lourd admitted she was “sad but grateful” as she celebrated her mother’s eighth birthday Carrie Fisher death.
Lourd opened up about her complicated feelings about the somber event, sharing an emotional tribute along with a flashback of herself with her late mother. via Instagram on Friday, December 27.
“Eight years have passed since then my mom died. As my son would say “that’s a lot!” I always dread this day. I spend so much time leading up to it thinking about how awful I’m going to feel,” Lourd, 32, wrote: “And my fear is usually correct. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud hanging over me. But when my children awoke, the dark cloud dissipated to make way for the sun shining brightly. The anniversary of her death is like an emotional tropical storm. It rains a lot during the day, but between storms the light is more beautiful than on any day without storm clouds. There are no rainbows without rain.”
The actress went on to draw a parable to explain what it was like to deal with her feelings of grief.
Amy Sussman/Getty Images; Jim Spellman/WireImage Billie Lourd pays tribute to her late mother Carrie Fisher seven years after the Star Wars actress’ death. “It’s been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting? I guess me?),” Lourd, 31, began her Instagram caption on Wednesday, Dec. 27. “Each anniversary brings a different iteration (…)
“It’s great there Anne Lamott quote, grief is ‘like having a broken leg that never fully heals – it still hurts when it gets cold, but you learn to dance with a limp’. And that perfectly describes how I feel today,” Lourd wrote.
She continued: “Yes sadness the weather is cold and yes I may be limping but I am absolutely dancing through life (oops did I quote mean?). And I’m actually a better dancer with my limp. My grief has given me a deeper appreciation for all of life’s little moments. So today I am sad (sad but grateful). I look at the magic that is my son and daughter and I know that she is a piece of that magic. And I feel all things. The sadness. the joy Desire. Magic. Emptiness. Fullness. And it all coexists in a profound way. Sending my love to everyone out there who needs it. ❤️”
Since Fisher’s death, Billie has welcomed son Kingston, 4, and daughter Jackson Joanne, 2, with her partner. Austen Rydell.
Fisherman died in December 2016 at the age of 60 after a heart attack. A day later, Fisher’s mother, Debbie Reynoldsdied of a stroke at the age of 84.
In the years since her mother and grandmother died, Lourd often opened up about her loss.
Last year, Lourdes commemorated the anniversary about her mother’s death with another sarcastic post.
“It’s been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting? I guess me?),” Lourd wrote in December 2023. “Each anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief. Some fill me with rage, some make me cry all day, some make me feel disconnected and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for not feeling anything, and some make me feel all of these things at once. “
Billie Lourd has shared how working on Gia Coppola’s new film The Last Showgirl has made her feel closer to her late mother Carrie Fisher and grandmother Debbie Reynolds. Take the stage alongside your co-stars Pamela Anderson and Jamie Lee Curtis at the premiere of The Last Showgirl at the 2024 Toronto International Film Festival on Friday, September (…)
The Scream Queens the alum also acknowledged in December 2021 that processing grief is “never easy.”
“I’m you different stages of grief every moment of every day,” Lourd wrote via Instagram. “My grief is a multi-course meal with many complex ingredients. An amuse bouche of negotiation followed by an appetizer of anger with depression, acceptance of the main course and of course a little rejection of dessert.’
She continued: “And that’s what grief should be – all things at once – there’s really no ‘should’ in grief – grief is whatever it is to you and that’s how it ‘should be.’
